Silhouettes

Me.

1. I don't live like my mother. I don't wanna live like my father. 

2. I don't want to give up before I die.

3. I don't want to make mistakes I will forever regret.

4. I've already made too many.

Today I had a close friend call after 6 months of not talking. It made me realize a few things which I won't get into too much. But was like looking into a new mirror, everything I've held in I let out in rapid succession, it took five minutes and I instantly felt better. The fact remains that I still have a choice. I still have time. 

Lately I've been dealing with what I now label as: Pre-muerte burial.  I almost convinced myself that I had ran out of a lot of time for all the things I could have been doing, and while I might be slowly running out of time (which is true), I still have time, period. 

Easy to understand, hard to put into practice. I also have this idealism that I should be enjoying life to the fullest, and while it might be a great idea, I was simply waiting for things to happen instead of taking control of my life. I am a procrastinator to the fullest. I put things off hoping that I'll get around to do them, including my passions...

Writing falling first on the list. I have ideas, stories, and jobs that I would love to have, but I can't even write everyday despite how hard I believe I will. But this friend, you see, is a godsend. He said not more then ten words and I was struck. 

"Just believe and do it." Well, there you have it kids. What else can be said, what else should be said, what else must be said?

I'm not going to live my life as a silhouette of what could happen. I will be the form that creates the shadow. 

Don't believe everything you see. :P 

I think I see everything, so anything I don't see, I don't tend to believe. Its time to believe in something without seeing it. i.e. I believe in numbers, yet I have no idea what an actual three (if it had a physical tangible form would look like).  

What kind of revelations, simple or complex, that you've had lately about yourself. 

Let me know. 

-Sincerely,

        Kid Danger.